I ask myself the same question a lot…. “Why am I so damn emotional?”
It wasn’t until recently that I realized how emotional I really am. I wear my heart on my sleeve, and to be honest I hate that I do. I don’t tell other people how I feel or when I’m sad but it’s pretty freaking obvious when I’m in a bad mood. I have frequent mood swings, I cry a lot (I’ll literally start crying when someone says I did a small thing wrong), and I am constantly over-reacting about stupid stuff. It’s often dismissed as me “just being a teenager,” or “just PMS’ing.”
But it’s not…. I am an emotional teenager and niether my age or menstrual cycle defines that. I’ve always been a sensitive person ever since I was a little girl and even if I don’t tell you that you’ve hurt my feelings, you have and I’m probably really sad about it inside.
I think another contribution to this is that I am extremely non-confrontational. I’m honestly terrified of confrontation and I can’t count how many times I have let someone cut me in line, or hurt my feelings and have just dismissed it because I don’t want to confront them. I can’t stand when people are upset with me, and sometimes it gets to the point where I can’t sleep at night until everything is solved.
I have however learned to grow a thicker skin over the past few months, and not be afraid to speak up and voice my opinion. In fact, I even confronted someone when they cut me in line at McDonalds! Go me! Slowly but surely I’ve been getting there. It takes a while to accept your flaws and try to work on them but I think I’m finally getting to the point where I can really stop being so damn emotional. I hope that I can help other people who are confused as to why their emotions control them so much, and to stick up for yourself. Emotions are just emotions, but you are you. And you can be a strong, outspoken, inspiring person- yet still be emotional and cry a lot. It took me a while to learn that.